also obbessed.

you know that big kind of love?
that fills you up and makes it hard breathe.
you can't speak and even if you could, you wouldn't know the words to say.
when you can look into that other person's eyes
and know that they feel exactly what you're feeling too.
the jump over the moon and can't sleep at night love.
i want it. real bad.
and i know i shouldn't.
its not my time. as cheesy as that sounds...
its just this whole notion of love is like a plague in brain.
especially surrounded by all these freaking byu-i couples.
and all the girls who just want to "date a whole bunch of guys"
what the heck ever.
dumbest thing i've ever heard.
i don't want to date.
i want to find that guy and know that he is that guy.
and i know i'm eighteen, go ahead and judge me!
just saying how i feel.
even though i know i'm really not helping myself at all in that department.
i just feel like, meeting people is a waste of time right now.
what are the odds of actually finding him.
as bad as i want that true blue through and through guy ...
i really can't focus on it.
i need to get a stupid a in anatomy.